Today was...better. I fell like it was better, because I didn't go all out crazy with ice cream and shit like that. But I did eat way too much. I woke up and was so hungry. It was too much. I ate that and then went to work. After that I came home, went for a run and then walked the dog. I'm chewing gum as my dinner.
I'm at 115lbs. So excited to go away for a little while. I feel more in control again. I feel good, but I feel bad at the same time. I don't deserve to feel good or hungry. I'm not skinny. Why be anorexic if I'm not skinny. I ate today and that's a crime in itself. I don't deserve these feelings.
What I ate..was a lot. English muffin(120) egg whites (35) cheese (75) cereal (100) milk (60) peanut butter (120) 2 cookies (200) and some chicken (70) which rounds to about 780 calories. I don't deserve to be skinny.
On the bright side, I wanted to post some famous thinspo to keep me motivated. Hopefully it helps you ladies too ;)
Emma Watson, she is literally on the verge of being under weight but I think she looks literally amazing. I wish I was a tenth of as pretty as she is.
Emma Stone I liked as a red head best.
I love Kirsten Bell because she is shorter like me :)
Alyson Hannigan is short too!
There are a bunch more celebs I admire, but this is all I'm posting for this one. More to come!
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